princess of darkness

This is why I always wonder
I am a pond full of regrets
I always try to not remember rather than forget

This is why I always whisper
When vagabonds are passing by
I tend to keep myself away from their goodbyes

Tide will rise and fall along the bay
and I'm not going anywhere
I'm not going anywhere
People come and go and walk away
but I'm not going anywhere
I'm not going anywhere

This is why I always whisper
I am a river with a spell
I like to hear but not to listen,
I like to say but not to tell

This is why I always wonder
There's nothing new under the sun
I won't go anywhere so give my love to everyone

Tide will rise and fall along the bay
and I'm not going anywhere
I'm not going anywhere
People come and go and walk away
but I'm not going anywhere
I'm not going anywhere  

well i think july and august of this year are mah dark months... everything went so wrong and so gay... mah life mah romance mah work...wat da fuck is wrong with me??? did i do someting wrong??? seriously... ima quite confused...well first of all. i spent too much recently... and then da one i love gonna leave me for his country and have no idea if i can see him again. da third is mah fucking school cut our payment... dudte tht's so gay. ive been teaching here for like 4 years... and right now they are not increase mah payment but instead of tht they cut it...wat da fuck is wrong with them... or i should say wat da fuck is wrong with me....???jesus,,, and seeing more and more friends right now kinda drifted apart and talk to each other less and less... well... i only have one sentence to say... I DUN GIVE A FUCK 

da goddamn summer break class really worn me out... but it's kewl. coz this is already da third one... after tht i think i really gonna have a longggggggggg vacation. to go someplaces to chill mahself... amigos see u guys in filipines and sandra alex see u guys in Uk, pingping see u in italy, neil and gory see u guys in germany and regina see u in hawaii and mah big bros see u guys in da states... miss ya'll... kiss and hugs muah... lol... 

 i feel life is more and more interesting. ya never know wat's going on when u cross da bridge. remember da end of last year i was still dealing da breaking up with mah ex-bf. i met BJ which was mah mistake... coz it's obvious, how can i allow mahself to date with BJ(blow job), it's so fucking wrong... lol... but fortunetely, i didnt go out with him tht long. and when i was ready to go back to mah normal single life with a very cozy condo, there's another guy barging into mah life... Jorge Armando... dun ask me it's right or wrong... nothing is right or either wrong. we met at Propa, he saw me and asked me a drink after tht i just back home. but da next time he called me then our relationship started from tht spot... yeah he's hot and sexy, but sometimes i was sicking-tired of having bf, coz i know mah life and destiny i dun deserve to have a bf, and i also dun deserve to be loved... so why i dun deserve but God never helps me to block em away, so i can enjoy mah single life, no love no being loved...